September 2024
As I sat sipping my first tea I had prepared of Bobinsana I felt a warm sensation spreading through my body. Bobinsana’s spirit enveloped me, like a gentle embrace. She showed me that to let go and to let love flow one must soften first. Tears began to stream down my face as I felt a deep sense of love and compassion wash over me. With connection and feelings, flowed words. Seeing and feeling through all the feelings in full presence with my heart open, poetry poured onto paper. A way of expression that I’d forgotten to give attention. I was reminded this was a love language and a beautiful healing way I could create and share from the depths of my heart with all beings. Below is a little poem I wrote that day as I connected with Bobinsana’s divine spirit;
By the water she shows
Through resilience, she grows
Opening her flowers
She brings her powers
Pink and bright
Spreading her light
A deep knowing resides that everything will be alright
Day by day, night by night,
She will be there with her tender loving care
Sirenita Bobinsana
Day one was coming back to what love is, to be aware and listen to my heart, be vulnerable and open no matter what. For someone to really see me and know my essence I must open like a flower. I knew in getting to know my heart and tending to it, all slowly unfolds and blossoms. Walls around my heart were melting away day by day and I could feel my heart filling and spilling love everywhere I went. Through all this love building inside I now knew I could trust my heart fully and let it take the front drivers seat. The love can and was blasting through all fears and any doubts that would spring up from my mind.
I had only met my now partner three weeks before beginning this dieta and I could feel Bobinsana bringing us closer together. Flowing and blossoming with me in our sacred union. Throughout the dieta I felt Bobinsana celebrating our connection and the love both me and my partner held in our hearts that was slowly merging together. Bobinsana showed me that all the powerful self love I had built was ready to be shared and I had nothing to worry about. Just to let it flow out. That love is limitless and there are no rules around it. Be in it and let it be. While diving into the deep waters of love I had to learn to feel and swim gently to keep a float with the waves, move with them and not try swim back (flee) or against (fight). Otherwise I could sink and drown. Naturally as you get to know someone and their needs and voice yours there will be challenging conversations. You want to meet them and be met. You may not like what one has to say or they may not like what you have to say, and so we have to put feelings aside to truly listen to be able to respond not react. If we want to keep swimming in the blissful ocean of love, we have to learn to keep the waves within steady not choppy, in order to be resilient mermaids like Bobinsana. It is never what happens to us it is how we think and act on what has happened. Our waters can be clear or murky stagnant too, depending on if we accept and feel all that is needing to be felt. We have to let emotions and feelings be felt and pass through.
Bobinsana connected with me in dreams to show me my courage and emotional awareness I held after a couple weeks into the dieta. In one dream I was in a leisure center on a training course. Four women were attached to a safety rope and climbed up a tall wall and began swinging and doing fancy movements pushing back and forth off the wall. When it was my turn to go up, I went up the wall without any safety rope, climbed and did a fancy jump into a pool by the side. Everyone looked surprised and congratulated me going up so high and then fearlessly diving in the water, making it up to the surface safely. Through awareness I was able to navigate effortlessly.
By the closing of my month dieta with Bobinsana I had, had almost daily lucid dreams where she had taught me about myself and my past and current relationships. It was in my sleep I could see and learn the most as my mind was quiet- taking in all the lessons of my teacher plant. Thank you Bobinsana for helping me dive deep in my heart, guiding me in dropping my ego and pride and in showing me I was ready to fully blossom to my beautiful partner.
